I'd Hate To Look Into Those Eyes and See an Ounce of Pain

I've been starting blogs, but not been able to finish, so...


The completed blog from Thursdsay:
Over a year ago now, I remember fighting with Trevor about Fall For You. For one, I didn't like the song because of this off key note they sing in it. Second, I believed that the song was about suicide. Now, I actually like the song. I somehow got it in my head today during math and realized even more just what it is about. I kept thinking of the lyrics

"But hold your breathe
Because tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find"

It's saying "Tonight I'm going to fall for you... again. Please don't make me struggle to fall out of love with you again. This cycle is so hard on me that I wanna to die to end it. It's like I'll never find anyone else to love."


Yesterday's rant:
Well, it's been another month feeling like this. Ugh.
What I've noticed: the ones that I really want to notice me, the ones I wish would care, don't. I wish that my presence mattered to at least one of them.


Today's blog:
Taylor dumped Trevor and I'm worried about him. He left YA Cafe early. That pretty much never happens. He was also in bed by 7. He usually goes to bed at 11...on school nights. I still hate to see him in pain, but I don't know what I can do to help.