I am such a jerk. I really let Trevor have it. I'd been so torn because I wanted to talk to Trevor because he saved me and he's really my last hope, but so much of what hurts me most involves him. Finally, I just burst out with everything that nobody has been there to notice. That couldn't have been moral. He already had all the stress in the world and I just piled more stress and guilt onto him. I'm sure that he hurts more than my broken heart and everything it caused hurt. Since I know that he must be in indescribable pain, I want to help him, but I don't want to intrude upon his life any more than I already do. I really hope he has someone to rely on, maybe Tyler or Taylor. It's insanely unhealthy for him to handle all of this on his own.
How pathetic a life am I living? So far today, I slept in until 11, ate a bagel, went on facebook, and listened to Glee songs over and over. Most often Keep Me Hanging On (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w-FkSKia-lw). It kinda makes me feel like I haven't been the only one to go through what I have.
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