When All I Needed Was the Truth

12 Truths:

1.) I am so loud, obnoxious, and outgoing because I want people to reject me right off the bat rather than when I've grown attached to them.
2.) Even though I'm bi, when I discover that someone else has taken on the label "bisexual", I think of them as merely being a slut.
3.) I loved Trevor. I still love Trevor. I've accepted that I will always love Trevor. He'll always have a very special part of my heart. This doesn't mean that I'd get with him again if I had the chance.
4.) My stuffed animals still each have their own personality and needs in my mind. I feel guilty when more than one of them wants to be cuddled in a given night.
5.) When I talk about the future when I'm a grandmother, I feel like I'm lying to those I'm speaking with because I don't really believe that I'll live to be that old.
6.) I hate sexism and transphobia, but I'm afraid of males. Especially when they're angry.
7.) I'm annoyed by girls that are whiny with baggage and low self-esteem because they're nearly always better than me in my mind. It makes me think that I am lower than low.
8.) Trevor and I broke up because he spoiled me. He gave me someone who claimed to love me, understood me, never judged me, and forgave me. He was my rock, so I became too lazy to stand on my own. No one likes someone who's overly needy.
9.) I feared the mentally and physically challenged so much for many years that I was over 13 when I stopped resenting my mentally handicapped cousin.
10.) I know that I'm not cut out to be a non-conformist. I'm far too into social graces.
11.) Everything that I am, my very life, relies on secrecy.
12.) Sometimes I still wonder if my best friend is the love of my life.